Sometimes a book comes along that really surprises you…..this is exactly what this one did.
Author: Jaime Samms
My Rating: 5 of 5 stars
From the Publisher:
Growing up in foster care has left Kerry Grey with little self-esteem or hope for his future. A college dropout, Kerry scrapes by on a part-time job at a garden nursery. His friendship with his boss and working with the plants are the only high points in Kerry’s life. He’s been dating the man who bullied him at school, but when his boyfriend abandons him at a party, Kerry wanders down the beach to drown his sorrows in a bottle of scotch.
Malcolm Holmes and Charlie Stone have been together for fifteen years. Despite Charlie’s willingness to accept Malcolm’s unspoken domination in bed,something is missing from their relationship. Early one morning, they rescue a passed out Kerry from being washed away by the tide and Charlie immediately senses a kindred spirit in the lost younger man. When Kerry’s roommate kicks him out, Malcolm and Charlie invite him into their home. As Charlie and Kerry bond over Charlie’s garden, Malcolm sees Kerry may be just who they have been looking for to complete their lives. All they have to do is show Kerry, and each other, that Kerry’s submissive tendencies will fit their dynamic.
But someone is sabotaging Kerry at every turn. As he struggles to discover the culprit, he fears for the safety of his new friends. If Malcolm and Charlie cannot help, their lifelong search for their perfect third may not end with the happily ever after they imagined.
From the reading the blurb I thought I knew what to expect. I was looking forward to 3 men with elements of BDSM in their relationship but this was so much more. This story isn’t about 2 men who find a 3rd that easily slots into their lives and they all live happily ever after. This was 3 men who had to work really hard for what they wanted when sometimes they weren’t even sure what it was they were working towards. 3 men who had lived and survived the foster care system with different results that were still impacting on their lives.
When we meet Kerry he is not in a great place. His parents died when he was very young and he spent his childhood being passed around. His last foster parent Nash had a huge impact on his life but it came too late to nurture him completely. He aged out of the system at 18 and moves across the country to College. He is currently in an abusive relationship with Andrew who was the jock that bullied him through High School. Andrew is deeply in the closet and a destructive influence on Kerry who has dropped out of college and is now working at a local gardening centre.
When Kerry arrives at a frat party hoping to surprise his ‘boyfriend’ he is left devastated. Andrew is there with a girl and completely ignores Kerry. To ease the pain and humiliation he feels he gets drunk on the beach and passes out. When 2 men wake him up hours later the tide is coming in, he is soaking wet with a raging hangover and he has been robbed. The men take him home and let him clean up but as breakfast is being served there is something in their dynamic that both scares and appeals to Kerry and he runs.
Malcolm and Charlie have been together for 15 years and to the outside world they seem to be the perfect couple. Malcolm also still suffers from the affects the foster system had on him but in different ways from Kerry. Malcolm craves control and though not spoken about he is Charlie’s Dom in most aspects of his life. Charlie is happy with Malcolms domination but there is something missing in their relationship that neither man is brave enough to discuss and slowly things are falling apart.
They have tried over the years to find a 3rd person for their relationship but each time this person has left them. Charlie needs more than he has at the moment and Malcolm is very aware of this. The fact that they don’t discuss it leaves both men flailing for the answers. Each time someone leaves the cracks become worse but it has become a viscous circle, both men are hurting and neither of them is having their emotional needs met.
Due to circumstances beyond his control and someone seeming determined to make his life miserable Kerry finds himself homeless once again and sleeping on his employers couch at the garden centre. When Malcolm stops by to purchase Charlie some plants the following day he offers Kerry a part time gardening job and eventually the spare room at their house.
Kerry is submissive by nature and fits in well with the dynamics of the house but his relationship isn’t sexual with the 2 men and he is beyond frustrated. He also finds himself questioning and challenging them both on how well their own relationship works. He desperately wants to fit in but there is such a lack of communication between the 3 of them he fears it will never happen. As Charlie and Kerry bond it feels like Malcolm struggles more to be sure of his place and he feels himself slipping back into old and very harmful habits.
When a family crisis means Kerry has to leave and return home to help Nash Charlie is devastated and things become even more fragile. Charlie finally takes control of his work and home life and slowly helps put Malcolm back together. For the first time they talk about their D/s relationship and what each of them need from it and over the next few weeks things finally look like they are back on track. The only thing missing is Kerry who still hasn’t returned.
When he does return to surprise Charlie at an art show things have vastly changed and they must now discover whether Kerry can fit back into their lives. I loved the relationship they ended up with. It is completely different from what I have read before but it filled in the cracks and gave all 3 men what they needed. Charlie really had been missing something from his relationship with Malcolm and Kerry was exactly what he needed. Their first time in bed together was such a challenge for all of them but particularly Charlie who had to be strong and vulnerable in so many different ways.
It really doesn’t matter how your relationship works in the eyes of other people as long as it works for you……Communication is the key!!!
I would like to thank Dreamspinner for providing me with the eARC of this title in exchange for my honest opinion.
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