My Secret NaNo ~ Edmond Manning: Outside the Margins

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“National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to creative writing. On November 1, participants begin working towards the goal of writing a 50,000-word novel by 11:59 PM on November 30. Valuing enthusiasm, determination, and a deadline, NaNoWriMo is for anyone who has ever thought fleetingly about writing a novel.” – NaNo’s website

I participated this year. Well, sort of.

I decided to write the 50,000 words in the month of November, but I didn’t tell anyone. I didn’t provide updates on Facebook or share progress I had made on my goals. Other friends did so and I watched their progress happily, cheering them or just adding “likes,” to show my passive support.

A Facebook friend asked if I was participating in NaNo and I gave some slippery, evasive answer which was not no, but not quite yes.

Why?

Why my odd secrecy?

I guess it’s about the numbers.

I have caught myself scoffing at writers who post something to the effect of, “I wrote 6,000 words today. It was a good writing day.” Really? Putting 6,000 words on the electronic page makes it a good writing day? What about quality? What about creative processing? What if a writer spent three hours mentally working through a brilliant idea or character insight and only wrote 1,500 words? Doesn’t that seem like you should get equal weight with the 6,000 word brag?

I would sometimes grumble my discontent at the number posters.

But then.

I had a great writing day a few weeks ago. What made the day fantastic was how in ‘the flow,’ I felt for most of the writing. I was proud at allowing myself to stay in that blessed space, to soak in it, and keep writing. I spent most of the day in front of the computer and while that is neither amazing or commendable, the fact that I gushed an enthusiastic flow of words, twisting and teasing them into sentences that splashed me, excited me, well, it made me feel like I surfed a cold California wave all the way to shore and stepped off right next to a hot dog stand.

This is how authorsl prefer to see themselves

This is how authorsl prefer to see themselves

(In my imagination, California surfers celebrate riding a great wave by grabbing a hot dog, bro, after they get back to shore. Stepping off your longboard right at the sand in front of the hot dog shack is just that much cooler.)

On that amazing writing day, when I posted my joy to Facebook, I ended up communicating how many words I wrote: 7,260. I was proud of myself.

And a hypocrite.

Hadn’t I scoffed at numbers-posters?

Wasn’t I one right now?

Yes, but it’s different, I argued with myself. I’m celebrating riding that wave and they’re celebrating a number. Okay, I said, but who is to say they aren’t also celebrating their own victories just like you?

Well, shit.

It’s humbling when you finally realize you’re just like everyone else and the thing you didn’t care for in others is so deeply embedded in you that you’re practically twins.

Okay, so the numbers matter. Somehow, the words written in a day correlate to riding that wave, that love of words and creating something beautiful.

A writer I respect, Lori Gallagher Witt, posted a few months ago on Facebook her hurt feelings that people assume her writing is poor quality because she writes fast. Considering Lori had two books as finalists in the 2013 Lambda Literary Awards last year, I would argue she has been acknowledged twice over as someone who produces quality.

Her heartfelt post made me open up and consider my own internal micro-prejudices on this topic. I admitted to her that I can be snobby about word count and thanked her for pointing it out to me. Beyond being a good writer, she’s also a good person, though I would never give her the satisfaction of saying that aloud.

I wonder if my word count snobbery masks professional jealousy?

I know writers who can churn out four or five books a year. I can’t. Am I jealous of that ability? You bet. If I could crank out a book in less time at the level of quality that makes me happy, would I? Sure! Who wouldn’t?

However, I take the time it takes to write because that’s the time it takes.

(Kind of a mental tongue twister there.)

My point is, to further push on my prejudice about authors who write fast, I decided to participate in this year’s NaNo, daring myself to push for 50,000 words in one month.

Could I make the goal?

Would my word count snobbery get in the way?

Normally, you don’t have to force me to sit in front of the computer and contemplate characters and what they might say. But to achieve 50,000 words, I had to set aside a goodly amount of free nights and then I couldn’t use “there’s a new Marvel Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. on Hulu” as an excuse to blow off a whole night of writing.

I still wanted to write a great story. But in November, I paid attention to the word count. Paid attention to how close I was to meeting my goal throughout the month.

But why the secrecy?

Was I ashamed I was counting words, just like others do?

Was I worried I wouldn’t meet the goal and then have to admit public defeat?

Or am I just a private person?

Maybe all of the above.

I think the thing I have a hard time admitting to myself is that we writers are cut from the same cloth. We love an afternoon or evening surfing those luscious words, riding the crest of enthusiasm, feeling the spray of unexpected adventures and plot twists in our faces like ocean droplets, refreshing, stinging, maddening. We don’t always know how to measure that surf, so we say things like, “I wrote for six hours.” Or “I wrote 6,000 words.” It’s the best we have to communicate our love for words, or love for surfing.

And we don’t have to all love the same thing. Some writers love writing 6,000 words because they love writing 6,000 words. I have to curb my professional jealousy and let other writers be good at the things they’re good at it.

We can all meet at the hot dog stand and proudly share our stories.

And for the record, in November, I wrote 51,225 words.

I did it.

Meet me at the hot dog shack

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~ Edmond Manning

About Edmond Manning

Edmond Manning is the author of several books which took him a long time to write:  King Perry, King Mai, The Butterfly King, Filthy Acquisitions, and I Probably Shouldn’t Have Done That.

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18 thoughts on “My Secret NaNo ~ Edmond Manning: Outside the Margins

  1. This pretty much says it right here, and is probably applicable to a number of things. We don’t always know how to communicate something we feel is an accomplishment, how proud we are of completing something that is a mix of tangible and not:

    “We don’t always know how to measure that surf, so we say things like, “I wrote for six hours.” Or “I wrote 6,000 words.” It’s the best we have to communicate our love for words, or love for surfing.”

    Like you said, we are all pretty much the same when it comes to a lot, much more than we’re not.

    I sooooooooooo rhymed right there.

    Thank youuuuuuuuu for sharing this with us and, as usual, your frankness is fabulocity to the nth degree. 😀 <3

  2. Hey guys, if you commented on this post this morning, Please repost your comment. I managed to lose all the comments posted this morning. I promise it was not intentional, just a fuck up on my part.

  3. I loved this line: “It’s humbling when you finally realize you’re just like everyone else and the thing you didn’t care for in others is so deeply embedded in you that you’re practically twins.”

    It amazes me when I realize that something that irritates me beyond measure is something I then find myself doing. It’s such a mental slap in the face that I end up stopping what I’m doing to contemplate my awfulness. But now it’s not just awful that I’m doing it but moreso that I judged someone else for that activity That.I.Do. Maybe the key is realizing that we are all the same in some ways as you said. Or maybe it’s recognizing that we all have annoying habits/thoughts and allowing ourselves to forgive that in both ourselves and others.

    Congratulations on the word count!

    • Thanks, Allison! I was pretty happy about my NaNo win. And I’m glad you have those moments too where you realize you were so *judgmental* and yet…um….yeah. I have that. I got it.

      We use a phrase in my group of men, called “spot it, got it.” It’s not a 100% truism…but the idea is that if you spot it in someone else, chances are you have some of that quality in yourself. Because how could you spot it so well if you didn’t recognize it? Hmmmmm.

  4. Bwahahahaha, Brandilyn! You honestly expect me to remember a thought I had this morning? Oh, that’s right. You’re younger than me. *nods and smiles* Just wait…. your day will come. ;o)

    I think Helena Stone remarked that she is a “spewer” and I commented that I don’t think I will ever be a “spewer.” 2000 words is a good day for me – even if it takes me 12 hrs to get there. Last year during NaNo, I had some 5000 and 7000 days, but I was inspired and knew nothing about self-editing. This year, I just wasn’t feeling it and NaNo seemed more like work to me and the more I saw everyone else’s word counts, the more uninspired I got. I did get a few smaller pieces written though so not a total loss.

    Oh…and I read before that the thing that annoys us most in other people is almost always a quality we own ourselves. Which just makes it that much more annoying…heh.

    Can’t wait to read ALL your words, Edmond! <3

    • Yes, Jaycee got it spot on. There isn’t a hope in hell of me repeating what I typed this morning. I do remember using the word spewing once or twice and saying something about how many words you write also depending on what sort of writer you are. Other than that I can’t remember my ramblings. But it’s okay, I was replying to Edmond, he saw it and replied, which I saw and read. So it could be worse 🙂

    • Jaycee, thank you! This story I’m writing now is so damn weird! I am writing a fantasy tale I guess (phoenix, time travel, magic, etc.) and I’ve never written anything like this. I love making up worlds and this one gets to be as insane as I want it to be. As long as the people respond in recognizable ways…it can be insano-flakes!

  5. Frankly, I am so glad you don’t write five books a year because then you may not have time to post goofy stuff on Facebook that really makes us smile. There is something special about you Edmond, no matter how many words you write.

    • Jo, what a lovely thing to say to me! Thank you! And you’re right…I wouldn’t want to be that heads-down anyway. I just wouldn’t. Some of my best times in life happen when I’m not nose-to-the-grindstone.

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