Author: Thursday Euclid
Publisher: Loose Id
Rating: 4.5 of 5 Stars
Length: Novel (~ 50K-100K)
Genre: M/M Romance
With a sold-out tour looming and intense media attention on their every move, the Artificial Hearts are the hottest rock act in the world. It’s just a matter of time until newfound fame illuminates a past Asher Beauregard would rather leave in the shadows. When he meets Leo Harpstedt, the irresistible frontman for the opening act, undeniable chemistry draws them together, but Asher’s secrecy and emotional scars keep Leo at a safe distance.
Posh and well-adjusted despite the blue hair, Englishman Leo comes from a world that Asher, a Louisiana-born high school dropout, can’t imagine, never mind inhabit, but as first the Artificial Hearts’ manager and then the tour throw them together, the tension between them grows uncontrollable. Leo’s seeming confusion about his sexuality and Asher’s refusal to let go of the persona and be vulnerable threaten to destroy the tender friendship they’ve built living and working together.
With help from his drag queen stylist, lesbian sound tech, and a lead guitarist with secrets of his own, can Asher overcome the public revelation of his deepest secrets and seize this chance at love?
This book was recommended to me by another author whose rock stars are some of my favourite characters in the MM genre. Her words were “It’s delicious” and as I like delicious I had to give it a go.
I’ve actually sat on this review for a couple of days as this book is probably one of the hardest ones I have had to write up in a while. I have never had a book before where I felt so angry with the characters, so engrossed in the story and so in awe of the writing. The words on the page are beautiful, the storyline was one which I found difficult to put down but the relationship between Asher and Leo was like a car crash.
Asher was so badly abused as a child. His mother was frigid with her emotions showing the young Asher no love or compassion. As he started to become sexually aware as a young teen the abuse worsened and he was often beaten. The lack of love from his mother had Asher craving love from anywhere so he threw himself into poorly thought out situations that ended up having a dire effect on him. The more he craved the more he hurt until he comes to believe that he isn’t lovable in any way. He will spend the next decade allowing people to use and abuse him believing that is all he is worth.
When we meet Asher he heads up Artificial Hearts a band that has a sold out tour awaiting them and the only way he gets through his day is with drugs and booze. His manager is a creep who pimps him out to anyone who will help the band, he isolates Asher from the rest of the band thinking only of his own future and supplies the drugs that keep him compliant. People see the rock star attitude, the aloofness, the drug use and the cocky attitude. What no one ever sees is the very broken, very used up young man beneath it all. Nobody that is until Leo and not even he sees it all.
Leo is like a crazy stalker with good intentions. How else could you describe someone who saw Asher in concert then went off and set up his own band with the intention of it being a way to meet his new idol. Leo is straight, his ex-ish girlfriend actually appears on the tour, when Leo’s band end up being the support act for Artificial Hearts. Money can truly buy you anything! When a meeting occurs between members of both bands and the manager whilst Asher sits in a drug induced haze somehow Leo ends up becoming a caretaker of sorts and Asher moves into his apartment with him.
There is a lot of going backwards and forwards with Leo and Asher’s relationship. It is never just a friendship but it certainly isn’t a romance. To use romance to describe any part of this book would be wholly wrong. It’s painful, it’s enabling and it feels unhealthy a lot of the time but it also addictive and it seems unstoppable.
When Asher returns to where it all started his demons are out to get him. His fear is palpable and he has all but given up but it ends up being cathartic in a strange sort of way. Their journey is possibly one of the most difficult you will read but it in the end it makes their triumphs that much bigger.
I would like to thank the publisher for providing me with the eARC of this title in exchange for my honest opinion.
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