Author: AM Arthur
Cover Artist: Lyn Taylor
Rating: 4.5 of 5 Stars
Publication Date: 10/20/2015
Length: Novel (~ 50K-100K)
Genre: M/M Romance
Love knows no limits…but fear could keep them from seeing it.
Gabe lives a double life. As Gabriel Henson, he works multiple jobs to support his remorseless, alcoholic mother. As Tony Ryder, he does internet porn for extra cash and regular safe sex without complications.
Yet when he encounters a scared young man freaking out in a night club, he’s compelled to reach out. Ever since then, the memory of that young man has haunted him.
Tristan Lavelle lives his life thirty minutes at a time. After a traumatic brain injury three years ago, he gets through his day recording his life in spiral notebooks and sticky note reminders.
A month after Tristan’s embarrassingly public meltdown, another chance meeting with Gabe sparks a warm, emotionally fulfilling email relationship. Both men crave more, but fear of the next step stands between them.
Until Tristan gets the opportunity to take part in a clinical trial that could improve his memory—if the side effects don’t kill him. But for Tristan, the possibility of a real life with Gabe is worth any risk…
Warning: Contains two damaged but lovable heroes, secret-keeping friends with good intentions, and an abundance of inappropriate food innuendo.
Tristan is and probably will be for a long time one of my favourite characters. When his family was still complete he was always the son in the shadows. His brother was the apple of his parents eye, the over achiever, the one they had pinned all their hopes on. When the pressure became too much his brother was suddenly gone and in some ways so was Tristan. He was never good enough to meet up to the high expectations placed upon him, he never wanted what his parents drove him towards and he found himself hiding his dreams and the person he really was. When he finally made a break for freedom and started really living at college his dreams were yet again snatched from him in a vicious attack that altered the course of his life entirely.
We met Tristan in book 1 of this series. He’s Noel’s best friend and these two men have something in common that binds them to each other, they were both attacked and left for dead. Noel was left with scars and memories but Tristan’s memory was taken away…almost entirely. He can remember things from before the attack but everything since disappears after half an hour. His life revolves around post it notes and his diary which he records all of life’s little details. He lives in an assisted living facility surrounded by old people, his world is the four walls around him, he is lonely, depressed and sees no end to his turmoil.
Two things happen that offer Tristan some hope. The first is that he meets Gabe although after the first time he doesn’t remember of course and the second is that he is offered a place on a drugs trial for patients with memory loss. The drug trial is a no brainer for Tristan and he agrees to it immediately giving very little thought to the side effects, for a man stuck in an endless loop of time any recovery outweighs the risks. His relationship with Gabe is a lot more complicated as for the first time in three years Tristan is becoming close to someone other than Noel and beginning a new relationship, one that involves becoming sexually active again, where the only memories you have later are those that are written in your diary and it proves difficult.
Gabe grew up with the love of both his fathers after living with his alcoholic mother became too dangerous. He can’t quite cut the ties with his relapsed mother, he is a man that doesn’t ignore his perceived responsibilities no matter how hard they make his life, so he is back living with and supporting a parent who is very self-destructive. To keep up with the bills and his mother’s out of control spending he films porn a couple of times a month for a small local studio. After being hurt in a previous relationship Gabe uses the sex he has in porn to replace nameless hook ups but yearns for a proper relationship and someone to love.
Watching Tristan’s struggles with life is painful, humourous and endearing. He is such a loving and tactile person who has lived a cold and solitary life since the accident that meeting Gabe is like getting all his birthdays in one go. As you get to see glimpses of the old Tristan reappear you get to see more of what was stolen in a mindless act of bigotry. The more self-sufficient he becomes the more difficult his relationship is with Noel and they have to re-establish boundaries, it’s not always comfortable but it is necessary.
I loved the emails, I jumped for joy when he remembered what time breakfast was, my heart broke a little because of his asshole parents, I cheered from the side-lines the whole way through the book and I was left feeling a little sad and a whole lot happier when it came to the end. I LOVED Tristan!
I would like to thank the publisher for providing me with the eARC of this title in exchange for my honest opinion.
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