Author: Amy Lane
Cover Artist: L.C. Chase
Rating: 4.5 of 5 Stars
Publication Date: 04/18/2016
Length: Novel (~ 50K-100K)
Genre: Contemporary, Drama, Gay Romance
One year ago, actor Connor Montgomery lost the love of his life to a drunk driver. But what’s worse for Connor is what he still has: a lifetime of secrets born of hiding his relationship from the glare of Hollywood. Unable to let go of the world he and Vinnie shared, Connor films a drunken YouTube confession on the anniversary of Vinnie’s death.
Thankfully, the video was silent—a familiar state for Connor—so his secret is still safe. He needs a fresh start, and a new role on the hit TV show Wolf’s Landing might be just that.
The move to Bluewater Bay may also mean a second chance in the form of his studio-assigned assistant. Noah Dakers sees through Connor’s facades more quickly than Connor could imagine. Noah’s quiet strength and sarcastic companionship offers Connor a chance at love that Hollywood’s closet has never allowed. But to accept it, Connor must let Vinnie go and learn to live again.
Oh the emotions! Selfie was all about the emotions. It was a portrait of the slow, spiraling decent into madness of one man so mired in grief it took a full on psychotic break to bring him back to life. This book was AMAZING. There were SO MANY wonderful aspects that I lost track and can’t even begin to talk about all the ways I loved this book.
But there was one thing that really stuck out to me the most and hit me hard and made a big impact. And that was Noah. He was both my favorite and least favorite parts of this story. Noah was the glue that held everything together. Have you seen the movie What Dreams May Come, starring Robin Williams? If you haven’t, you need to. It’s one of my favorites. But Noah’s behavior throughout the story reminded me so of Robin William’s character in that movie and I connected to Noah just as I did to the movie. For all his love of Connor, Noah was an enabler for much of this narrative. He allowed Connor to continue on his path of pain and sorrow until one day Noah snapped and tried to pull Connor back. But it was not until Noah decided to JOIN Connor on his journey that Connor finally understood the destruction he was leaving behind, not only for himself but for those who love him. It was Noah’s trying to show Connor his love by going with him to the end that finally broke the cycle. Oh don’t get me wrong, there was no miracle cure or instant fix, there were plenty more emotional parts and tons more healing to be completed, but Noah broke the cycle. And in doing so he broke me.
I was very apathetic to Connor and Vinnie because to be honest, I hated Vinnie and hated how Connor couldn’t see that he deserved better. Having been through a relationship where my love forgave all, I had a hard time giving sympathy to Connor’s grief because I knew how it ended. But when Noah was ready to sacrifice himself for the man he loved, even when Connor had yet to prove to me why he deserved it, I broke. I cried. Big, fat, ugly snot tears.How could someone love another so much that he would be willing to journey into the unknown just to be together? How could someone love another so much, he would give up his life? It broke me to see this kind of love in action, because I don’t understand it at all. And I wish I did.
And speaking of understanding, that was what I meant when I said Noah was my least favorite part of this story. I never understood him. This was all from Connor’s POV so I never understood why Noah loved him. Why Noah understood him. Why Noah enabled him for so long. I never got Noah. Oh I loved him and he broke me, but I never got his side of the story and I think it did this story a disservice.
I am a loyal follower of the Bluewater Bay universe and will continue to be so. Selfie has surpassed all others as my new favorite in this world and I recommend this to all current Amy Lane fans and all readers who think they may want to be.
I would like to thank the publisher for providing me with the eARC of this title in exchange for my honest opinion.
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