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Title: LEARNING TO LOVE
Author: Felice Stevens
Publisher: Self Published
Genre: Gay Romance
Release Date: 05/02/2016
After ten years away from home, bad boy caterer Gideon Marks has a lot to prove. Getting the holiday catering job at his childhood synagogue is the first step in demonstrating to everyone he didn’t turn out to be the failure they predicted. What he doesn’t count on is Rabbi Jonah Fine, his high school nemesis and secret crush, stirring up old feelings Gideon thought long gone and secrets he’s buried deep for years.
An unexpectedly passionate encounter shocks Gideon, but he pushes Jonah away, convinced he isn’t good enough to be in a relationship and would never be accepted by Jonah’s father. But Jonah hangs tough—he won’t allow Gideon to hide or run away from life again. And when it comes to love, Gideon learns the most important lessons aren’t always taught in school.
“Scared of what? Your father dying? He’s going to be okay.”
“No. Not that.”
I waited, picturing Jonah; he’d be sitting up against the headboard, a serious expression on his face. I knew his face like I knew my own heart.
“I was scared you felt smothered yesterday; that it was an overload, first dealing with my father’s problems, then seeing your father. I figured you spending the night by yourself was a way to tell me you were checking out of the relationship.”
Disbelief fired my anger. “You think so little of me, that I’d do that?”
“Not you. It’s me. I’ve wanted you for so long I’m afraid I came on too strong. That even though you said you loved me, maybe I pushed you to say it before you were ready.”
To look at Jonah, one wouldn’t think he harbored such vulnerability. In truth, we all hid our secrets well. I stared across the empty bed and longed to hold him like we always did after making love. Even though he hadn’t been here in weeks, I imagined I could still smell his scent lingering in the sheets and blankets, a comforting reminder of his presence. Alone I was alive but barely breathing. Jonah taught me to inhale and fill myself with laughter; the sound of a life worth living. After years of sleeping by myself, content with my solitude, now this bed seemed big and empty without him stretched out beside me.
“Sorry, but you’re stuck with me. And you’re right—it sucked being alone. I couldn’t sleep without you either; it’s why I stayed up most of the night in a chair and ended up twisted like a pretzel.” I hugged the pillow close.
“Come on over, and I’ll straighten you out.”
“Oh, yeah? Sounds like it might be painful.” Flirting wasn’t something I’d ever done much of before, and I liked it. A lot.
“Don’t worry; I promise to be gentle. Unless you’d rather me be rough. Besides, I like you a little bit twisted. It’s part of your charm.”
I hummed my approval. “I’m a man of many charms, you know. You’ll have to discover them on your own, though.”
“I look forward to it. As long as we’re together. And speaking of together, tonight you’re coming back to our apartment.”
I couldn’t help but chuckle. “You and me together. It’s like bagels and lox; a perfect combination.”
“Always thinking of food. Now I’ll never be able to look at a bagel without thinking of you.”
“I’m okay with that.”
“So we’re on the same page now I hope?” A touch of anxiety crept into his voice. “I know you have a hard time believing it from where we started out as kids, but I want you to understand, from the beginning, it’s always been you.”
Jonah had said it before, and I hadn’t believed him, but now I was so tangled up in him I couldn’t get away if I tried.
And I wasn’t planning on trying.
About the Author
I have always been a romantic at heart. I believe that while life is tough, there is always a happy ending around the corner. My character have to work for it, however. Like life in NYC, nothing comes easy and that includes love.
I live in New York City with my husband and two children. My day begins with a lot of caffeine and ends with a glass or two of red wine. I practice law but daydream of a time when I can sit by a beach somewhere and write beautiful stories of men falling in love. Although there is bound to be a little angst along the way, a Happily Ever After is always guaranteed.
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