Until I Fade by Kol Anderson ~ Book Review by Caroline

30816078Title: Until I Fade

Author: Kol Anderson

Publisher: Self Published

Cover Artist: Unknown

Rating: 4.5 of 5 Stars

Publication Date: 07/04/2016

Length: Long Novel (~ 100K+)

Genre: BDSM, Gay Fiction, Gay Romance


A collection of taboo, dark shorts.

(A collection of brand new and previously published Kol Anderson taboo shorts. Newly edited and never before seen stories.)

Release Date: July 04, 2016

Don’t be Afraid of the Dark

Destiny is a strange thing. It can be fickle at times, and it can make you miss out on incredible connections that would set you on the journey of your lifetime. But the thing is, you’ll never know what you missed out on.

Sometimes Destiny takes pity on you and lets you meet the person you are supposed to, at just the right time. When Jensen first saw Liam, he lost his heart. Even if it took him a while to realize that. It’s okay, though. He had to grow and learn some more before he was the man Liam needed to save him from a life he was trapped in.

Supernatural forces collide to give Jensen the strength he needs to evolve into the man Liam waited his whole life for, and when their souls finally slam into each other, neither will be the same again.



It’s the worst feeling in the world, seeing him with someone else. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do, no limits I won’t go to get him back. But he won’t give me a chance. He won’t so much as look at me because he thinks I don’t belong to him anymore.
But that’s the whole thing.
I don’t belong anywhere.
Doesn’t matter where I go or who I am with I am always alone. There is something wrong with me, there has to be because no one else seems quite as miserable at being without a master.
But don’t we all owe our freedom to something?
People are slaves, aren’t they? To their jobs, to their partners, to their children, even to their lifestyles?
We all have those little kinks that we don’t tell anyone about, because we think we’re going to be judged for them, and because we’re slaves to society’s rules.
In a world where slavery is the norm I’m a slave to my needs.
To him.
And I need to get him back.



Samuel “Sin” Taylor doesn’t know the difference between sex and intimacy, but maybe that’s not his fault. He grew up in a world where it was easier to get physical pleasure than to find love. But as a prostitute working the streets, Sin thinks he’s finally found his true calling. After all sex is the one thing he’s good at, right? But when Isaac enters his life through mere coincidence, Sin finds it a relief to be someone other than Sin.

How long can he keep up the charade?



Ever felt like the world thinks you’re crazy? Welcome to my world. I tried normal, but eventually the truth catches up to you. Thank God for Evan, he believes me. But no man is a saint, and eventually the stories of aliens and tentacles and kidnappings just become too much for anyone to believe anymore.

But I know what happened. I know what they did to me. The voices are calling me back now. They’re calling me to be with her, my daughter. And I can’t resist it anymore.


My View:

Don’t be Afraid of the Dark
This first story had a bit of everything; a rent boy, a bit of kink, a mob boss and then Vampires – not many people could successfully include all that in a short story and pull it off but Kol does and he does it well.

Jensen is my favourite type of character in that he just wants to be loved – don’t we all? Dumped by his latest married man he spots Liam, an angel in his eyes, and is immediately smitten. Liam is new to the area, new to the bar and he has ended up in the sights of Austin, mob boss and all round bad guy, but Liam has almost lost the will to live so it doesn’t seem too bad when he strikes a deal.

This story is a little crazy from there on out. Jensen is dragged away by a Vampire and Liam becomes a virtual prisoner and let me tell you when he breaks the rules there are harsh consequences! It’s like popping down the rabbit hole in true Kol Anderson fuckery!


Jesse and his despair jump off the page at you in this one – that’s Kol’s writing for you! He has lost everything that is important, his beloved Sir has moved on and left him without much of an explanation.

To add to the pain in his heart he gets together with a notorious sadist who isn’t known for playing nice. Noah is everything you don’t want in a Dom but Jesse is desperate and craving and easily led into a stupid and dangerous situation.

This story was compelling with a clever twist, Jesse is not as daft as he seems, but Jesse was the only character I liked. Noah was awful but then he was written that way and Matt was a douche who didn’t know a good thing when he had it!


I previously reviewed Sin for Prism. To see what I had to say please click

Ok this one did me in!! I had absolutely no clue where it was going or how it was going to end which to me says very clever writing as I am usually quick to pick up on the direction of a story.

Jacob is really put through the mill in this one, even by Kol’s standards which are usually pretty harsh, and even when I finished I wasn’t entirely sure what had happened but one thing is for sure it didn’t quite finish the way I expected!

If you are a fan of Kol Anderson and the dark words he puts on the page then this anthology will be perfect for you.


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I would like to thank the publisher for providing me with the eARC of this title in exchange for my honest opinion.

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