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I mentioned last month that my current WIP, Falling Awake 2, was taking its toll on a couple of characters. It’s an unpleasant thing, mostly for them, but for me too. The first draft is complete, and I’m in the process of doing my edit before sending it off for the revamp. And as much as I thought it was dark while I was writing it, I have been reduced to tears during the edit.
No, it’s not because it’s awful. That would make me laugh. I can work with awful, since awful can be a great deal of fun if tampered with in just the right way. How often have we watched an awful movie, but the director, script writer, or editor have done something to it that just gave it enough of an edge to make it a good kinda bad? I love those! But, no, this isn’t an awful situation. It’s an emotional one.
My friend and fellow author, J.P. Barnaby, warned me that if I tortured the main characters from the first Falling Awake story in a more horrific manner in the sequel, she wouldn’t read it. I can at least feel good knowing I haven’t done that. I haven’t tortured the main characters at all. Nope. I found other characters to torture.
Going to that dark place has never been something I wanted to do. It never appealed to me. Other folks have wanted to see what it would be like if I did, and have urged me to do so. Now they’re re-thinking that request. And when they read the second book? I’m fairly certain they’re going to be suggesting I back away from the laptop and start watching episodes of Mrs. Brown’s Boys until I get my comedic mojo back again.
Embracing the dark side isn’t an entirely horrible thing, though. There is strength in doing so, strength in eventually overcoming what’s been thrown in your direction. It comes with a cost, as the characters in the second book find out. But there is also redemption, which they’ll also discover in the third book. It’s all one big story, just cut up into smaller pieces.
I’m not sure if I’ve opened myself up to this different kind of writing because I’m feeling my mortality more than ever before, or if this is just a natural progression. Actor Tom Hanks when from starring in Bachelor Party and The Man With One Red Shoe to Forrest Gump and The Da Vinci Code. People evolve. So maybe this is me trying to write something meaningful.
I’ve lost a number of people in the last four years who were important to me. They were parental figures, a parent, mentors, and friends. I’ve seen what their absence has done to their loved ones, and I’ve experienced firsthand what it’s done to me. Aside from the expected sadness, these losses make me angry, angry because too many have been taken in too short a time. I’ve…relied on these people, which sounds selfish. I expected they would still be around, and I know they wanted to be (and not just for me).
They wanted to be here, but they’re not. When they were, I felt free to stay away from the darker side of things. I was insulated, and never needed to go near it. And now that I’m not, I’m starting to familiarize myself with it. And maybe my version of trying to comfort myself is to face it, write about it, and overcome what it throws at me, but through a story.
Maybe we all go through this, just in different ways, our own way.
About Kage Alan
Non-award winning and utterly non-famous LGBT author Kage Alan lives in a suburb of Detroit, MI with his husband, who answers to “His Majesty,” and their fish and shrimp, who answer to “fish” or “shrimp.” He enjoys adding to his tiny Blu-Ray library, and fibbing about buying Blu-Rays on New Release Tuesday. Kage also lives in fear of His Majesty’s Hong Kong Grandmonster, who God apparently doesn’t want to spend time with.
His novels include A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to My Sexual Orientation, Andy Stevenson Vs. the Lord of the Loins, Gaylias: Operation Thunderspell, and Falling Awake. He also has short stories in Butt Pirates in Space, Butt Ninjas From Hell, Butt Babes in Boyland, Butt Riders on the Range, and Butt Villains on Vacation.
I have a number of paperbacks, most of which are signed, to giveaway. Over the between now (11 Mar 2017) and 31 Mar 2017, every comment on the blog (this post and all other new posts), will be entered to win 1 of these paperbacks. There are also some misc swag items, so there will be a few packs of these to give away as well.
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